Conflicted Heart

A little more
Each and every day
Until I know that
I don't have much else to say

So I listen
And observe with great care
I don't think they even realize
How often I am there

Hearing what they say
Seeing what they do
How all the people
Act around "you"

I don't know what I'm doing
Why this attention I've suddenly paid
To a man I called a "stranger"
And somehow, into a friend made

I kind of want to fall
A little and a little more
But all this time I spent waiting
"He" spent walking out the door

"He" has a girl now
And for this I could not be more glad
"She" can make "him" happy
I could make "him" sad

For me, I fear
The thrill is in the chase
And when they stop looking at me
I run to fill that place

People should not be treated
Like mere things or toys
While most look to guys doing this to girls
Some girls do this to boys

I don't want to be a chaser
A woman who is not content
Until she has gotten their affections
And then is extremely spent

I hate to hurt them
I do not want to do so
Please be my friend, but to out with me?
Please just don't go

There, don't do it
For I don't know my own heart
I did not fall for you
To go out with me would not be smart

I fear I live for a chase
In a lifelong fantasy
So please, for your own sake and sanity
Stay away from me

Please stay away